I was able to go home for Thanksgiving and Joey didn't work that much! We really had a great time together. We first ate at James' house (my sister's fiance) and then at Joey's house. I never knew how much Joey liked Sparkling Apple Cider! He was really hogging the bottle all night!
We had another argument about a week ago. I tell you...this semester is really not going well. So I plan to go home more next semester...if I can finish my homework within the week. But it will be tough because I need to start taking the test preps for all the tests I need to take for Grad School and the Teaching Credential. I was able to go to SDSU's Future School Counselor Day! I was so intimidated by the parking lot alone! It's so connected to the town that if you don't stay close to the school, you'll leave the school altogether. So anyways...took me forever to find a parking permit booth once I found the right parking structure, and I was so excited with the price of parking. $1 for 1 hour....at CSUSM it's $3 for 1 hour! I was able to find the building and room...everyone was really nice. I talked to Grad students and they all thought that I could get into the school counseling program there. They only accept 12 people there every year! So I'm trying really hard to learn everything I can about the process and exams I need to take so when Oct. 1st comes next year, I will have all my applications ready. I need to review the program more, but I still have a lot of time.
Winter Break...so as I told you a while ago...I have 4 HD classes left. I'm taking 2 Spring semester and I plan to take the other 2 in the summer. But one of the classes opened up for the Winter Intersession. It's 2 weeks from 8 to 3 Mon-Fri for $900. The money isn't an issue for me because the summer costs the same thing. The summer session is 5 weeks long and during the same time as fair. I really want to work at the fair again this year because it gave me a lot of money, but I also want to work at the school so I can save up even more. The only thing that is stopping me from taking the Winter class is Joey. I really want to spend time with him because of all our fighting and arguments, but his work schedule is so unplanned. If he works too much, then I should go, but if he doesn't work, then I would be wasting precious time with him. It's so difficult! I just don't know what I'm going to do yet.
Since I'm so broke for Christmas, I've told my family that I'm not getting them anything...not even Joey. I think Joey and Vanessa still think I'm tricking them and trying to surprise them, but I'm not. I really cannot get anyone anything. I do have something small for everyone so I hope they like it! I'll tell you what it is when the holidays are over. Happy Holidays Everyone!
-CabbageQ.-
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
It's raining :(
I've had a lot of things go on this week. Since I am the Alpha Lambda Delta Vice President, I made an Opportunity Drawing which was pretty much a 50/50 raffle. We made some good money, but I had to be there 'til 5pm everyday. It was so cold and then I couldn't talk to Joey very much either.
I don't remember telling you that my grandma broke her arm. So anyways, after 6 months with a metal bracket on, she was finally going to get surgery. My dad and my grandma came to my apartment on Monday and spent the night. My grandma had surgery early Tuesday morning and then came home to rest. They left on Wednesday.
Wednesday night is when a lot of things happened. Joey got the GameStop job that he's been waiting for years to get. It's only temporary, but if they like him (which they will) then he'll be permanent! The bad thing about all this, is that he's going to also work at Wendy's because if he doesn't get the GameStop job, then he still wants to have a job at Wendy's. (He's so ready to leave Wendy's!) So there goes our Thanksgiving break and my Winter break...and since I don't have a job for the break, I was able to go home and really hang out with him. This isn't going to be possible anymore since he'll have two jobs. I started to cry on the phone when he told me this, and he said why cry, it's only for a couple of months. I said that those couple of months were the only time I would have with him before I have to come back up here to go to class...which leads to my next issue.
I'm double-majoring in Human Development and Spanish. I only have 4 HD classes and 11 Spanish classes left to graduate with both majors and I want to graduate in Spring 2012. I wanted to take 4 Spanish classes this semester, but since I had to take another 2 prerequisites, that wasn't going to happen. There was a class that was a Co-prerequisite, but it was at the same time as one of my prerequisites. So there went that idea. But I emailed the department chair and he said that they were going to fix it! But while I waited for this to happen, I signed up for my 2 Spanish classes, 1 online class for Family Violence (I really hate online classes, but it was the only one available. They say the teacher's pretty easy though, so I should be fine, right?), and 1 HD class that says it's only for seniors (so I have to check if I'm even able to take the class, but it let me sign in so what does that mean?!).
UPDATE!! I got the 3rd Spanish class, so I might be taking 5 classes next semester! I hope I'm not biting off more than I can chew....
The last thing that happened on Wednesday was that I finally told my dad that I was really thinking of Joey coming up here. Obviously he said it was a bad idea, but that topic always makes me cry. So once that was over, I called Joey so he could calm me down. He didn't help at all so I called my friend Alissa. She helped me stop crying and she also enlightened me on how great her life was going. I was really happy for her because she was going through some bad times.
So that was my Wednesday, but I feel Thursday was even worse. But before I talk about Thursday, I forgot to tell you something about Wednesday. Since Joey was so excited about his interview and his new job, he told me the whole story. I was so interested in his story and that he was excited, but when I started to talk about my day, he completely ignored me. I hate it when he does that. I'm like...can't you at least act interested!
So anyways, Thursday. I was finally about to catch the bus around the time Joey got a break. He didn't want to talk on the bus so he waited until I got home. When I got home, we talked for a while and everything was going great until he saw Christian and said he had to leave. I got really pissed because we still had 5 minutes or so to talk and he always leaves our break conversations for everyone else. I don't know...maybe I was overreacting, but I want to feel special sometimes. So then this was the last we have said since then...over text because he was working:
J-Woman, you need to chill.
C-Maybe if you treated me like your woman, then I would.
(I was asleep after this.)
J-Pu lease You need to watch what you say. (around 9:11pm)
J-Sometimes I wonder (around 9:45pm)
(I randomly woke up.)
C-wonder about what? (around 11pm)
That's the last that I've heard from him. He didn't call yesterday and I feel as if I'm always calling him then it won't get in his head that I'm serious. I talked to my sister about it and she said that if someone really loved you, then they wouldn't act like such a jerk all the time. But I always let him slide, so what does that say about me? She also said that maybe it was a bad idea to have him come and live with me since he's acting so immature. I honestly don't know anymore. I'm tired of crying to sleep night after night when he acts up and doesn't think about what he says. All last week and a little of this past week, he was so sweet and sending me lovingly text messages like "I have the most beautiful girl on my mind right now".
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared that if this silence goes on for another day, that more bad things will begin to pop into my head. Why is this semester so difficult?! God! We were doing so well, what happened? I really hope we can get past this...because I don't know how much more of this nonsense I can take. I don't want to break up, but the idea is now crossing my mind and it's not going away. I don't want to lose my best friend again, but maybe it would be best if I just let him get on with his life and stop holding him back from the things he wants to do.
-CabbageQ.-
I don't remember telling you that my grandma broke her arm. So anyways, after 6 months with a metal bracket on, she was finally going to get surgery. My dad and my grandma came to my apartment on Monday and spent the night. My grandma had surgery early Tuesday morning and then came home to rest. They left on Wednesday.
Wednesday night is when a lot of things happened. Joey got the GameStop job that he's been waiting for years to get. It's only temporary, but if they like him (which they will) then he'll be permanent! The bad thing about all this, is that he's going to also work at Wendy's because if he doesn't get the GameStop job, then he still wants to have a job at Wendy's. (He's so ready to leave Wendy's!) So there goes our Thanksgiving break and my Winter break...and since I don't have a job for the break, I was able to go home and really hang out with him. This isn't going to be possible anymore since he'll have two jobs. I started to cry on the phone when he told me this, and he said why cry, it's only for a couple of months. I said that those couple of months were the only time I would have with him before I have to come back up here to go to class...which leads to my next issue.
I'm double-majoring in Human Development and Spanish. I only have 4 HD classes and 11 Spanish classes left to graduate with both majors and I want to graduate in Spring 2012. I wanted to take 4 Spanish classes this semester, but since I had to take another 2 prerequisites, that wasn't going to happen. There was a class that was a Co-prerequisite, but it was at the same time as one of my prerequisites. So there went that idea. But I emailed the department chair and he said that they were going to fix it! But while I waited for this to happen, I signed up for my 2 Spanish classes, 1 online class for Family Violence (I really hate online classes, but it was the only one available. They say the teacher's pretty easy though, so I should be fine, right?), and 1 HD class that says it's only for seniors (so I have to check if I'm even able to take the class, but it let me sign in so what does that mean?!).
UPDATE!! I got the 3rd Spanish class, so I might be taking 5 classes next semester! I hope I'm not biting off more than I can chew....
The last thing that happened on Wednesday was that I finally told my dad that I was really thinking of Joey coming up here. Obviously he said it was a bad idea, but that topic always makes me cry. So once that was over, I called Joey so he could calm me down. He didn't help at all so I called my friend Alissa. She helped me stop crying and she also enlightened me on how great her life was going. I was really happy for her because she was going through some bad times.
So that was my Wednesday, but I feel Thursday was even worse. But before I talk about Thursday, I forgot to tell you something about Wednesday. Since Joey was so excited about his interview and his new job, he told me the whole story. I was so interested in his story and that he was excited, but when I started to talk about my day, he completely ignored me. I hate it when he does that. I'm like...can't you at least act interested!
So anyways, Thursday. I was finally about to catch the bus around the time Joey got a break. He didn't want to talk on the bus so he waited until I got home. When I got home, we talked for a while and everything was going great until he saw Christian and said he had to leave. I got really pissed because we still had 5 minutes or so to talk and he always leaves our break conversations for everyone else. I don't know...maybe I was overreacting, but I want to feel special sometimes. So then this was the last we have said since then...over text because he was working:
J-Woman, you need to chill.
C-Maybe if you treated me like your woman, then I would.
(I was asleep after this.)
J-Pu lease You need to watch what you say. (around 9:11pm)
J-Sometimes I wonder (around 9:45pm)
(I randomly woke up.)
C-wonder about what? (around 11pm)
That's the last that I've heard from him. He didn't call yesterday and I feel as if I'm always calling him then it won't get in his head that I'm serious. I talked to my sister about it and she said that if someone really loved you, then they wouldn't act like such a jerk all the time. But I always let him slide, so what does that say about me? She also said that maybe it was a bad idea to have him come and live with me since he's acting so immature. I honestly don't know anymore. I'm tired of crying to sleep night after night when he acts up and doesn't think about what he says. All last week and a little of this past week, he was so sweet and sending me lovingly text messages like "I have the most beautiful girl on my mind right now".
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared that if this silence goes on for another day, that more bad things will begin to pop into my head. Why is this semester so difficult?! God! We were doing so well, what happened? I really hope we can get past this...because I don't know how much more of this nonsense I can take. I don't want to break up, but the idea is now crossing my mind and it's not going away. I don't want to lose my best friend again, but maybe it would be best if I just let him get on with his life and stop holding him back from the things he wants to do.
-CabbageQ.-
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Fight! Fight! Fight!
My roommates don't really like each other and today they got a little physical....For the sake of their privacy, I'll call one of them Kristen and the other one Carmen. A little background on these two ladies, I lived with Carmen last year with problems, I still have no idea why I stayed with her. I found Kristen so I could get a 3 bed/2 bath, be friends with Carmen so I wouldn't have to and pay less rent overall. Well Carmen doesn't clean after herself and her mom pays for her rent so she is really clueless on a lot of things. Kristen pays for everything on her own, like me, and cleans when she's here, which isn't a lot because she works. They both are in the nursing program so they have to see each other every day. Well things haven't been going well for a while now and today was the day that hell broke loose. Kristen wrote Carmen an email a while ago about how irresponsible she is, how she brought a stray cat into our apartment when Kristen was allergic to cats, and how she's just messy overall. In the letter, Kristen told Carmen that she didn't want to talk to her unless she changed and was mature. Today Kristen wrote Carmen a letter about how her mom was going to come and help her clean the apartment since there is still cat dander everywhere. Carmen wanted to talk to her, but Kristen didn't want to listen so when she did decide to talk Carmen started accusing her of yelling, which she was (but with good reason), and then Carmen started saying that if Kristen didn't want to talk to her, then she should go away, although Carmen is the one who wanted to talk. Talking got to yelling and Carmen called Kristen "passive aggressive" and when Kristen got close to Carmen, Carmen pushed her back. That's where it got worse...that's where I noticed they were fighting. I was in my room during most of the fight watching "The Nanny" and waiting for Joey to get off of work at 12am. I heard Kristen saying, "Don't you ever touch me again!" and when I heard that, I started to walk out of my room, but Kristen was walking back to her room and was ready to leave. She put water on her face, but I didn't know why. I later found out that Carmen threw soup at her. I saw the attempted version to clean up the soup, but it was still everywhere, on the floor, on the stove, on the walls...it was a mess. Kristen says she might report her and get here evicted, but that's not for certain. This has turned out to be quite an issue...and I'm here acting like I don't know anything. I plan to keep it that way. It's not my place to get into their problems, I have my own problems to deal with so I'll update you on the future actions that come. Take care everyone and if you have a roommate, please tell the truth about what you don't like and what's bothering you RIGHT AWAY. This is how things like this happen!
-CabbageQ.-
UPDATE! Kristen reported Carmen, but that's about all she did. Carmen's mother called my father and that got me angry. I had nothing to do with the fight, and more so my father. He was busy the next day so he couldn't talk much anyways...which I'm glad for. He said that Carmen's mother said that Carmen said that Kristen cornered her in the kitchen...which I'm not sure she did or not, but then again this is none of my business. And what got me even more mad was that I hadn't even told my family about the fight because I was busy with schoolwork and it was late when it happened. Well I just can't wait to get out this lease and never have to deal with these girls again!
-CabbageQ.-
-CabbageQ.-
UPDATE! Kristen reported Carmen, but that's about all she did. Carmen's mother called my father and that got me angry. I had nothing to do with the fight, and more so my father. He was busy the next day so he couldn't talk much anyways...which I'm glad for. He said that Carmen's mother said that Carmen said that Kristen cornered her in the kitchen...which I'm not sure she did or not, but then again this is none of my business. And what got me even more mad was that I hadn't even told my family about the fight because I was busy with schoolwork and it was late when it happened. Well I just can't wait to get out this lease and never have to deal with these girls again!
-CabbageQ.-
Monday, October 11, 2010
What to do...what to do.
Ohhh...I've been eating bean and cheese burritos for 2 days now and I'm still not sick of them :) hehe. God...I'm so Mexican! Well onto the daily things in my life: I spent this whole weekend setting up my honor society with an email, 2 PowerPoints, and an invitation letter for the incoming members. But, while doing that I failed to do my homework and had to get it done overnight. I'm currently looking for another job since I'm only allowed 20hrs/week at school and I can't even work that because I don't have enough work study money left. Great, right? I just applied to 2 local Coldstones:) Gotta have my ice cream! haha. So onto another topic, I'm also looking for a place to live and roommates to live with close to April. I may have found someone, but it's still tentative and as far as a place, who knows? I haven't seen my roommate for a couple of days and I'm very excited about that!
Now onto the love life...Joey and I have been having problems, or at least I think we have. We are so busy, well he's really busy with school and work, that we don't have time to talk as much as we used to. It's been really hard this semester...At the beginning we used to see each other every other weekend, but now it's been every 3 weeks or this time a month. And when I was working at the fair, I didn't see him for a month and a half. I don't see how he can be so calm about it. Maybe it's because he has someone there, his family, his friends and all I have is a friend I see every so often and work...which is not the same thing as family and friends, although I care about them...it's not the same. Joey's not moving and I'd rather not even think about it...why go through all the sadness and hope when I already know the answer?
-CabbageQ.-
Now onto the love life...Joey and I have been having problems, or at least I think we have. We are so busy, well he's really busy with school and work, that we don't have time to talk as much as we used to. It's been really hard this semester...At the beginning we used to see each other every other weekend, but now it's been every 3 weeks or this time a month. And when I was working at the fair, I didn't see him for a month and a half. I don't see how he can be so calm about it. Maybe it's because he has someone there, his family, his friends and all I have is a friend I see every so often and work...which is not the same thing as family and friends, although I care about them...it's not the same. Joey's not moving and I'd rather not even think about it...why go through all the sadness and hope when I already know the answer?
-CabbageQ.-
Sunday, September 26, 2010
On My Period
Well I'm not having a very good week. I'm all over the place and I need to get my head together. First of all, I have too many hours and I don't have a job that I can work them off on. I took off hours from one of my jobs to work more for another job and now that new job doesn't need that many hours after all. I can only work 20 hrs a week and I'm currently only working 8-11 hrs! Next, I need to start my homework and get ahead with what needs to be done so when I go home I don't have to come back to homework. I have a paper due and I haven't even read the book yet! Another thing, I got a C+ on my first Spanish essay, it's not bad, but I need to get some help or I'm never going to be able to pass the rest of my Spanish classes...All my classes next semester are Spanish! Next, I'm acting weird with Joey, I sent him a letter that I kinda regret sending, but what's done is done so I can't take it back. I don't know how to act when he calls. Today, he didn't call me all day until he got a break from work and then only for a little while. I don't know anymore...I know he loves me, but I feel like I'm the only one that's trying to make it work. For example, I really want him to live with me, but he keeps saying next year or when I save up enough money. When is he going to start saving up? All he does is save up his money for the new video game and something he wants at the moment. I just have to give up and tell myself that it's not going to happen. I mean I've stopped acting like a girl (if you know what I mean) for a while now and I've lowered my expectations, but you gotta have at least one expectation, right? I know he's trying really hard, but I just don't know. I think all I want...if he sees this...is to have him prove me wrong and take time to make a list of how great of a boyfriend he is to me, because I know he is, but since he doesn't show me enough, I tend to forget and only focus on the bad. I want him to plan in the future a little and surprise me with anything...flowers or chocolates or gum. He did try to surprise me once, but I wasn't at home and when I went to his house he just shoved the flowers and chocolates in my face and said "Here." Like God Joey! It wasn't my fault I wasn't home, he could have at least gave them to me nicely when I opened the door to his room or something (some Plan B that was). nope..he shoved them at me and kept on playing his video games. Well I guess boys will be boys and girls will be girls.
Oh and I'm not on my period quite yet! hehe
-CabbageQ.-
Oh and I'm not on my period quite yet! hehe
-CabbageQ.-
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Just Another Day
Well Fall 2010 semester has started and I'm trying to get started on the right track with getting my work done right away and not procrastinating. It's not really working, but I'll try that again next week :) Joey and I had a great vacation day at my apartment. We went to Boomers and Viejas Casino...where I lost a ticket for $30 :( For those of you that can't hit the slots yet, you put money into the machine and what you win comes out in a paper with the amount of money left/won. Well we had won the $30 and I lost it moving from one machine to the next. Lesson learned...don't have Cabbage hold the money. Classes are good, but I'm currently have a lot of trouble with my native speaker spanish class... I can barely understand the professor and all the jokes he says in spanish. I'm trying to get into the non-native speaker class, where I hope I will learn more without stressing myself everyday. On to something a little more interesting...Joey's birthday!! My baby's 19!! and I'll be 20 soon...oh no!! But for his birthday, I took him out to eat at Sizzler's, but surprised him by inviting: his family, my family, Christian (his high school friend) and his girlfriend, and Brandon (his other friend that is related to him somehow). He had a great time and he told me that that was probably the first ever surprise party he's ever had. My poor Sweetie Pie... so sheltered. I also bought decorations for the party which consisted of: Pokemon wristbands, paper whistles, blue balloons and a Spongebob, Spiderman and huge Pikachu balloon. I love making my honey's day! Can't wait until the months pass by until 2012 where he said that he might be able to come to live with me!
-CabbageQ.-
-CabbageQ.-
Monday, July 26, 2010
Parental Unit
I don't see why my parents don't understand the words coming out of my mouth. I do everything in my power to show them that I'm a good girl and that I have a good head on my shoulders. Why can't they accept Joey for who he is? I mean the man loves me enough to stay through all this crap for almost 5 years and still treat them with respect. I just have to keep telling myself that it'll be one more year until i turn 21 and then they won't be able to stop our plans together. And I'll prove to them that Joey is not a distraction, but a motivator to help me do my best. So to Joey, thank you for all you do for me. Please don't ever let them get to you and keep me in your heart always.
-CabbageQ.-
-CabbageQ.-
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Looking good
Well I hope I don't bore you with my first blog. I'm here sitting in my room attempting to try to write down some notes for a test on Tuesday. So....an update on my life: I'm taking 2 classes at California State University San Marcos (CSUSM) and going on my 3rd year there. I have 3 jobs on campus: (1) Enrollment Management Services-Student Assistant- I answer phones and tell you whether you got in or not. (2) Early Outreach Programs- Student Assistant/Mentor- I give tours to elementary and middle school students of the campus. (3) Upward Bound- Tutor/Mentor- Tutoring local high school students. I actually might quit that last job since I might get hired as a Teaching Assistant at a preschool so we'll see. I'm still with Joey Quijada, hence the CabbageQ. as my name. and if you don't know, my nickname is Cabbage...when I was little I looked like a Cabbage Patch Doll so it just stuck, if my family or boyfriend calls me Esmeralda, I know I'm in trouble. So about my love life, since we're on the subject. This coming September is our 5 year anniversary and, with permission from my mother...who still thinks that he's a phase in my life, are going to be able to come up to San Marcos and hang out all day. No sleepover yet :( but someday in the future it'll happen. We also plan to move in together in the near future up here and live the rest of our lives together, but hell will break loose with we tell my mom that...I mean she doesn't want my bigger sister to leave the nest yet and she's 23!! Some of my future plans...I have 2 more years until I get my Bachelor's Degree in Human Development-Counseling and Spanish-Translator. I plan to also get my Master's in School Counseling so that will take another 2 years and I also plan to get my Teaching Credential which will take another year so I have 5 yrs of school left...FUN!! I'm also in 3, soon to be 4, honor societies and that in that 4th one, I'm future vice president so yay me! Well I'm sure I've bored you enough today so enjoy the hot weather and I'll try to write something a little more interesting next time. See ya!
-CabbageQ.-
-CabbageQ.-
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