Spring Blooms into Another Semester

I honestly don't know what to say or where to start. I'll try to make this recap quick, although you know that's probably not gonna be possible because I'm writing it:)....we all have to learn to laugh at ourselves at times. So starting in June, I got a gym membership that I paid $500 and who's using that? Not me...FAIL! There goes that money:( I procrastinated all Fall semester and I went home a lot so that could have been the reason as well. You know I pretty much do all my homework on the weekends. Let's see what else....Oh Mychelle and James got married! I gave a horrible maid-of-honor speech because I didn't plan it...my bad. But on my behalf she didn't tell me I needed to even make a speech until the day before and I was helping make the slideshow so there! Nika was able to move into an apartment Fall semester in my apartment complex and she was a great neighbor. She was only here for six months but she really decorated it nice. It was very open.

I think those are the big things that happened with everyone else. So onto the thing that fills my life with joy, Joey. He proposed! No I'm just kidding, that's not going to happen for years...or maybe he's just making me think that so I don't expect it? No I learned to stop dreaming/hoping for those romantic things to happen years ago. Joey will never think in the future and actually try to plan something ahead of time. I, on the other hand, had his Valentine's Day present ready in the middle of January! But Joey and I are doing good. He's been able to come up here a couple times and spend time with me. It's so wonderful. Once he had to leave early in the morning to get to work by 10am so somehow we both woke up around 5am and we just started talking..It was bliss:) I can't wait 'til that happens everyday...just stay in bed and hug and talk. BTW Joey's sleeping problems were not good for a while. Xmas at my house, I took him home around 4/5am because he couldn't sleep. I also took him home when we were at Mychelle's house for New Year's. And when he sleeps here, he can't sleep either. Sometimes I wonder if it's me, but he used to sleep just fine next to me...sigh. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

School, well I'm procrastinating, but I'm slowly getting back on track. I didn't apply to Grad school or the teaching credential program. My plan for this next year: work with Donna and volunteer at El Camino, take new counseling classes at CSUSM that they started this semester, take math classes at Palomar, and apply for everything in December. Why didn't I apply? You guys know I just haven't been in the zone for school. I'm just not motivated anymore. I think I just need a break. I also thought about Joey and I and how my school would affect us. Now he wasn't a major reason for making me wait a year, but he was a contributing factor. Think about it: if I got into the Master's Program, then I would start school in the summer and Joey plans to come live with me around Aug/Sept, so I wouldn't even be able to hang out with him because I'd be studying and working. I've been without him for 4 years, I think I'd rather slow my life down a bit and enjoy the time I have with him.

Well that's my quick recap since June, but before I go, I want to share something Joey told me today. I had asked him "Why do you love me?" and although I was talking about my silly self (check out Joey's videos on his blog), this is what he replied:

"Because I know that you'll never leave me. I know how much you love me no matter how stupid I am. I feel so alone when you're not with me because I have to work or you have to go to school and it breaks my heart to know that you feel the same. That's why I love you...At least a few reasons why." -Joey Quijada

I love you Joey Quijada and I can't wait until the day I say "I do" and I'm yours forever!

-CabbageQ.-

Summer Bust!

Now that I have been able to fill you in with what I want to do in the future and what I wrote about in the December special...hehe. special...Like I'm legit! I completely forgot to tell you what happened with my living situations since December. It was a crazy time...as always.
Well I came back from my vacation refreshed and rejuvenated. I came back with a new roommate, JayJay. Kritsten found her and she really sounded like she would work out, but I soon learned that this chick was not ready to live on her own. She's from Phoenix and she would drive back and forth every weekend. That's when I started wondering how she had so much money to pay for gas. Well I don't think she did have the money, but she did it anyway. She never cleaned anything and stayed in her room the whole time. I think it was around March that she left. She paid her last month's rent and she was gone!
Carmen and I started getting closer, but she was still annoying. I tried looking for roommates since January, but no such luck. I even looked for places to live that had reasonable pricing and decent roommates. No such luck again. I eventually had to stick with getting a studio in deep down Escondido...rent $695, water $25...overall $720, not including gas and electricity. Happily though, that has turned out to only be $30 to $45!! Which I'm really excited about.
So back to the roommate situation...I don't know whether it's because I'm such a nice person, or I'm just insane, but I decided to let Carmen live with me until school ended, which was about a month. Yeah, I don't have to tell you how that turned out. But she did make a new boyfriend!...haha, no, but she did click with my male neighbor...but doesn't she always hook up with her male roommates.
Mychelle and James helped me decorate the place and make it really homey. Everyone that comes in says that it's more than what they expected. I changed my full bed for 2 twin beds so I could have a roommate if needed. Speaking of that, Alissa might be the next roommate to live there since she's having problems with her living situation as well. The rest of my family and Joey still have yet to see the new place, so I can't wait until they do!
So currently, I'm working two jobs: at the Fair again (Race to the Fair) and at Admissions with Donna. And that class I wanted to take in the Winter, I'm taking now as well. Because my mom didn't want to pay for my class (about $1200...who would though, right?) I had to find another class to take so I could have enough units to get a loan. But she did pay for my parking permit for the summer, which was about $200, so thank you Mommy :) SO...anyways, Nika is also living with me and she has turned out to be the best, I mean BEST, roommate in the world! She's amazing. I'll be sad when she's done with school in a couple of weeks, but we all have to move on I guess :(
Because I'm working at the fair again, that means no Joey for a whole month and a half...sigh... I would be sad, but I'm so busy that I don't have time to fret, but Joey on the other hand does....lots of time as a matter of fact. He was so depressed that he couldn't sleep until 4 or 5 in the morning. He would call me every so often in the middle of the night and we would talk. I'd be losing sleep, but what could I do? It was my fault that he was having trouble sleeping. I eventually thought of the idea of sending him letters, so I did. I can only hope that he's enjoying them as much as I am having, making them. He said he made me a letter, but I still have yet to receive it, so we shall see.
Well I think that is all I have to report about my life so far. I'd rather not talk much about family matters, although I do talk about Joey, that's my own life. So have a wonderful day everyone and I will write when new things pop up!
-CabbageQ.-

Refreshed

Wow!
A lot has changed since December. I mean...heck! It's June already! I don't even know where to start. I guess I'll start where I left off. I was able to hang out with Joey and my family all winter break long, so much so that he was able to spend the night for Christmas AND New Year's Eve! We still have yet to hang out on the 4th of July though. I was able to buy a couple of small things for my family and something I sent to everyone was a Christmas card. They were very cute though so it makes up for not really buying anyone presents.
The reason I was able to stay at home for the break was because my class got canceled..which was great! I was able to fulfill my issue with the class: spend time with Joey without feeling guilty. I was able to take a test prep for the CBEST, but I was very disappointed. I really expected for it to be a review, but it was more about test taking tips than anything else so there went $300! >(
My Spanish classes kicked my butt this semester! I ended up with 3 B's and 2 A's. The 2 A's, of course, were from my HD classes. I wish all classes were that easy. I learned a lot in Spanish and I hope to really be on top of things come Fall semester. I know I said that this past Spring semester, but this time, I don't have a choice. I'm going to be taking my full-time classes, ALL SPANISH!, complete 20 hours a week working at El Camino HS, and filling out my grad and teaching credential applications as well as scholarships. You can never have too many of those! So as you can see, I'll be a busy bee.. as always.
I'm not going to turn in my application right at the beginning of October..why you ask? Well it's because I want to get a recommendation letter from my conuselor/mentor at El Camino. And since I will be able to work with her, I want to have her write me a good letter based on how I do in her program. I can't wait! What an opportunity!
So my plans for the future: I do have different plans A, B, & C.
A: Get into the Master's program and hopefully get a job out of it. No teaching credential after if I get a job. Why risk it, right?
B: I don't get into the Master's program, so I want to get a Middle-Level Teaching Credential...not a Spanish or Math yet because I'd have to do a lot of reviewing, which I don't have time for. Then re-apply for the Master's program.
C: I don't get into either program so I will find a job, hopefully still with Donna at Couga Cent. and complete an Associate's Degree in Math at Palomar. Then re-apply for the Master's program.
Overall, I still want to live in the current place I'm living at now, because it's such a hassle to move and it's become so homey. I can't wait until Joey moves up with me and we can continue our lovely lives together! Go us!!!
-CabbageQ.-

Once Upon a December

I was able to go home for Thanksgiving and Joey didn't work that much! We really had a great time together. We first ate at James' house (my sister's fiance) and then at Joey's house. I never knew how much Joey liked Sparkling Apple Cider! He was really hogging the bottle all night!
We had another argument about a week ago. I tell you...this semester is really not going well. So I plan to go home more next semester...if I can finish my homework within the week. But it will be tough because I need to start taking the test preps for all the tests I need to take for Grad School and the Teaching Credential. I was able to go to SDSU's Future School Counselor Day! I was so intimidated by the parking lot alone! It's so connected to the town that if you don't stay close to the school, you'll leave the school altogether. So anyways...took me forever to find a parking permit booth once I found the right parking structure, and I was so excited with the price of parking. $1 for 1 hour....at CSUSM it's $3 for 1 hour! I was able to find the building and room...everyone was really nice. I talked to Grad students and they all thought that I could get into the school counseling program there. They only accept 12 people there every year! So I'm trying really hard to learn everything I can about the process and exams I need to take so when Oct. 1st comes next year, I will have all my applications ready. I need to review the program more, but I still have a lot of time.
Winter Break...so as I told you a while ago...I have 4 HD classes left. I'm taking 2 Spring semester and I plan to take the other 2 in the summer. But one of the classes opened up for the Winter Intersession. It's 2 weeks from 8 to 3 Mon-Fri for $900. The money isn't an issue for me because the summer costs the same thing. The summer session is 5 weeks long and during the same time as fair. I really want to work at the fair again this year because it gave me a lot of money, but I also want to work at the school so I can save up even more. The only thing that is stopping me from taking the Winter class is Joey. I really want to spend time with him because of all our fighting and arguments, but his work schedule is so unplanned. If he works too much, then I should go, but if he doesn't work, then I would be wasting precious time with him. It's so difficult! I just don't know what I'm going to do yet.
Since I'm so broke for Christmas, I've told my family that I'm not getting them anything...not even Joey. I think Joey and Vanessa still think I'm tricking them and trying to surprise them, but I'm not. I really cannot get anyone anything. I do have something small for everyone so I hope they like it! I'll tell you what it is when the holidays are over. Happy Holidays Everyone!
-CabbageQ.-

It's raining :(

I've had a lot of things go on this week. Since I am the Alpha Lambda Delta Vice President, I made an Opportunity Drawing which was pretty much a 50/50 raffle. We made some good money, but I had to be there 'til 5pm everyday. It was so cold and then I couldn't talk to Joey very much either.
I don't remember telling you that my grandma broke her arm. So anyways, after 6 months with a metal bracket on, she was finally going to get surgery. My dad and my grandma came to my apartment on Monday and spent the night. My grandma had surgery early Tuesday morning and then came home to rest. They left on Wednesday.
Wednesday night is when a lot of things happened. Joey got the GameStop job that he's been waiting for years to get. It's only temporary, but if they like him (which they will) then he'll be permanent! The bad thing about all this, is that he's going to also work at Wendy's because if he doesn't get the GameStop job, then he still wants to have a job at Wendy's. (He's so ready to leave Wendy's!) So there goes our Thanksgiving break and my Winter break...and since I don't have a job for the break, I was able to go home and really hang out with him. This isn't going to be possible anymore since he'll have two jobs. I started to cry on the phone when he told me this, and he said why cry, it's only for a couple of months. I said that those couple of months were the only time I would have with him before I have to come back up here to go to class...which leads to my next issue.
I'm double-majoring in Human Development and Spanish. I only have 4 HD classes and 11 Spanish classes left to graduate with both majors and I want to graduate in Spring 2012. I wanted to take 4 Spanish classes this semester, but since I had to take another 2 prerequisites, that wasn't going to happen. There was a class that was a Co-prerequisite, but it was at the same time as one of my prerequisites. So there went that idea. But I emailed the department chair and he said that they were going to fix it! But while I waited for this to happen, I signed up for my 2 Spanish classes, 1 online class for Family Violence (I really hate online classes, but it was the only one available. They say the teacher's pretty easy though, so I should be fine, right?), and 1 HD class that says it's only for seniors (so I have to check if I'm even able to take the class, but it let me sign in so what does that mean?!).
UPDATE!! I got the 3rd Spanish class, so I might be taking 5 classes next semester! I hope I'm not biting off more than I can chew....
The last thing that happened on Wednesday was that I finally told my dad that I was really thinking of Joey coming up here. Obviously he said it was a bad idea, but that topic always makes me cry. So once that was over, I called Joey so he could calm me down. He didn't help at all so I called my friend Alissa. She helped me stop crying and she also enlightened me on how great her life was going. I was really happy for her because she was going through some bad times.
So that was my Wednesday, but I feel Thursday was even worse. But before I talk about Thursday, I forgot to tell you something about Wednesday. Since Joey was so excited about his interview and his new job, he told me the whole story. I was so interested in his story and that he was excited, but when I started to talk about my day, he completely ignored me. I hate it when he does that. I'm like...can't you at least act interested!
So anyways, Thursday. I was finally about to catch the bus around the time Joey got a break. He didn't want to talk on the bus so he waited until I got home. When I got home, we talked for a while and everything was going great until he saw Christian and said he had to leave. I got really pissed because we still had 5 minutes or so to talk and he always leaves our break conversations for everyone else. I don't know...maybe I was overreacting, but I want to feel special sometimes. So then this was the last we have said since then...over text because he was working:
J-Woman, you need to chill.
C-Maybe if you treated me like your woman, then I would.
(I was asleep after this.)
J-Pu lease You need to watch what you say. (around 9:11pm)
J-Sometimes I wonder (around 9:45pm)
(I randomly woke up.)
C-wonder about what? (around 11pm)
That's the last that I've heard from him. He didn't call yesterday and I feel as if I'm always calling him then it won't get in his head that I'm serious. I talked to my sister about it and she said that if someone really loved you, then they wouldn't act like such a jerk all the time. But I always let him slide, so what does that say about me? She also said that maybe it was a bad idea to have him come and live with me since he's acting so immature. I honestly don't know anymore. I'm tired of crying to sleep night after night when he acts up and doesn't think about what he says. All last week and a little of this past week, he was so sweet and sending me lovingly text messages like "I have the most beautiful girl on my mind right now".
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared that if this silence goes on for another day, that more bad things will begin to pop into my head. Why is this semester so difficult?! God! We were doing so well, what happened? I really hope we can get past this...because I don't know how much more of this nonsense I can take. I don't want to break up, but the idea is now crossing my mind and it's not going away. I don't want to lose my best friend again, but maybe it would be best if I just let him get on with his life and stop holding him back from the things he wants to do.
-CabbageQ.-

Fight! Fight! Fight!

My roommates don't really like each other and today they got a little physical....For the sake of their privacy, I'll call one of them Kristen and the other one Carmen. A little background on these two ladies, I lived with Carmen last year with problems, I still have no idea why I stayed with her. I found Kristen so I could get a 3 bed/2 bath, be friends with Carmen so I wouldn't have to and pay less rent overall. Well Carmen doesn't clean after herself and her mom pays for her rent so she is really clueless on a lot of things. Kristen pays for everything on her own, like me, and cleans when she's here, which isn't a lot because she works. They both are in the nursing program so they have to see each other every day. Well things haven't been going well for a while now and today was the day that hell broke loose. Kristen wrote Carmen an email a while ago about how irresponsible she is, how she brought a stray cat into our apartment when Kristen was allergic to cats, and how she's just messy overall. In the letter, Kristen told Carmen that she didn't want to talk to her unless she changed and was mature. Today Kristen wrote Carmen a letter about how her mom was going to come and help her clean the apartment since there is still cat dander everywhere. Carmen wanted to talk to her, but Kristen didn't want to listen so when she did decide to talk Carmen started accusing her of yelling, which she was (but with good reason), and then Carmen started saying that if Kristen didn't want to talk to her, then she should go away, although Carmen is the one who wanted to talk. Talking got to yelling and Carmen called Kristen "passive aggressive" and when Kristen got close to Carmen, Carmen pushed her back. That's where it got worse...that's where I noticed they were fighting. I was in my room during most of the fight watching "The Nanny" and waiting for Joey to get off of work at 12am. I heard Kristen saying, "Don't you ever touch me again!" and when I heard that, I started to walk out of my room, but Kristen was walking back to her room and was ready to leave. She put water on her face, but I didn't know why. I later found out that Carmen threw soup at her. I saw the attempted version to clean up the soup, but it was still everywhere, on the floor, on the stove, on the walls...it was a mess. Kristen says she might report her and get here evicted, but that's not for certain. This has turned out to be quite an issue...and I'm here acting like I don't know anything. I plan to keep it that way. It's not my place to get into their problems, I have my own problems to deal with so I'll update you on the future actions that come. Take care everyone and if you have a roommate, please tell the truth about what you don't like and what's bothering you RIGHT AWAY. This is how things like this happen!

-CabbageQ.-

UPDATE! Kristen reported Carmen, but that's about all she did. Carmen's mother called my father and that got me angry. I had nothing to do with the fight, and more so my father. He was busy the next day so he couldn't talk much anyways...which I'm glad for. He said that Carmen's mother said that Carmen said that Kristen cornered her in the kitchen...which I'm not sure she did or not, but then again this is none of my business. And what got me even more mad was that I hadn't even told my family about the fight because I was busy with schoolwork and it was late when it happened. Well I just can't wait to get out this lease and never have to deal with these girls again!

-CabbageQ.-

What to do...what to do.

Ohhh...I've been eating bean and cheese burritos for 2 days now and I'm still not sick of them :) hehe. God...I'm so Mexican! Well onto the daily things in my life: I spent this whole weekend setting up my honor society with an email, 2 PowerPoints, and an invitation letter for the incoming members. But, while doing that I failed to do my homework and had to get it done overnight. I'm currently looking for another job since I'm only allowed 20hrs/week at school and I can't even work that because I don't have enough work study money left. Great, right? I just applied to 2 local Coldstones:) Gotta have my ice cream! haha. So onto another topic, I'm also looking for a place to live and roommates to live with close to April. I may have found someone, but it's still tentative and as far as a place, who knows? I haven't seen my roommate for a couple of days and I'm very excited about that!
Now onto the love life...Joey and I have been having problems, or at least I think we have. We are so busy, well he's really busy with school and work, that we don't have time to talk as much as we used to. It's been really hard this semester...At the beginning we used to see each other every other weekend, but now it's been every 3 weeks or this time a month. And when I was working at the fair, I didn't see him for a month and a half. I don't see how he can be so calm about it. Maybe it's because he has someone there, his family, his friends and all I have is a friend I see every so often and work...which is not the same thing as family and friends, although I care about them...it's not the same. Joey's not moving and I'd rather not even think about it...why go through all the sadness and hope when I already know the answer?
-CabbageQ.-