I've had a lot of things go on this week. Since I am the Alpha Lambda Delta Vice President, I made an Opportunity Drawing which was pretty much a 50/50 raffle. We made some good money, but I had to be there 'til 5pm everyday. It was so cold and then I couldn't talk to Joey very much either.
I don't remember telling you that my grandma broke her arm. So anyways, after 6 months with a metal bracket on, she was finally going to get surgery. My dad and my grandma came to my apartment on Monday and spent the night. My grandma had surgery early Tuesday morning and then came home to rest. They left on Wednesday.
Wednesday night is when a lot of things happened. Joey got the GameStop job that he's been waiting for years to get. It's only temporary, but if they like him (which they will) then he'll be permanent! The bad thing about all this, is that he's going to also work at Wendy's because if he doesn't get the GameStop job, then he still wants to have a job at Wendy's. (He's so ready to leave Wendy's!) So there goes our Thanksgiving break and my Winter break...and since I don't have a job for the break, I was able to go home and really hang out with him. This isn't going to be possible anymore since he'll have two jobs. I started to cry on the phone when he told me this, and he said why cry, it's only for a couple of months. I said that those couple of months were the only time I would have with him before I have to come back up here to go to class...which leads to my next issue.
I'm double-majoring in Human Development and Spanish. I only have 4 HD classes and 11 Spanish classes left to graduate with both majors and I want to graduate in Spring 2012. I wanted to take 4 Spanish classes this semester, but since I had to take another 2 prerequisites, that wasn't going to happen. There was a class that was a Co-prerequisite, but it was at the same time as one of my prerequisites. So there went that idea. But I emailed the department chair and he said that they were going to fix it! But while I waited for this to happen, I signed up for my 2 Spanish classes, 1 online class for Family Violence (I really hate online classes, but it was the only one available. They say the teacher's pretty easy though, so I should be fine, right?), and 1 HD class that says it's only for seniors (so I have to check if I'm even able to take the class, but it let me sign in so what does that mean?!).
UPDATE!! I got the 3rd Spanish class, so I might be taking 5 classes next semester! I hope I'm not biting off more than I can chew....
The last thing that happened on Wednesday was that I finally told my dad that I was really thinking of Joey coming up here. Obviously he said it was a bad idea, but that topic always makes me cry. So once that was over, I called Joey so he could calm me down. He didn't help at all so I called my friend Alissa. She helped me stop crying and she also enlightened me on how great her life was going. I was really happy for her because she was going through some bad times.
So that was my Wednesday, but I feel Thursday was even worse. But before I talk about Thursday, I forgot to tell you something about Wednesday. Since Joey was so excited about his interview and his new job, he told me the whole story. I was so interested in his story and that he was excited, but when I started to talk about my day, he completely ignored me. I hate it when he does that. I'm like...can't you at least act interested!
So anyways, Thursday. I was finally about to catch the bus around the time Joey got a break. He didn't want to talk on the bus so he waited until I got home. When I got home, we talked for a while and everything was going great until he saw Christian and said he had to leave. I got really pissed because we still had 5 minutes or so to talk and he always leaves our break conversations for everyone else. I don't know...maybe I was overreacting, but I want to feel special sometimes. So then this was the last we have said since then...over text because he was working:
J-Woman, you need to chill.
C-Maybe if you treated me like your woman, then I would.
(I was asleep after this.)
J-Pu lease You need to watch what you say. (around 9:11pm)
J-Sometimes I wonder (around 9:45pm)
(I randomly woke up.)
C-wonder about what? (around 11pm)
That's the last that I've heard from him. He didn't call yesterday and I feel as if I'm always calling him then it won't get in his head that I'm serious. I talked to my sister about it and she said that if someone really loved you, then they wouldn't act like such a jerk all the time. But I always let him slide, so what does that say about me? She also said that maybe it was a bad idea to have him come and live with me since he's acting so immature. I honestly don't know anymore. I'm tired of crying to sleep night after night when he acts up and doesn't think about what he says. All last week and a little of this past week, he was so sweet and sending me lovingly text messages like "I have the most beautiful girl on my mind right now".
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared that if this silence goes on for another day, that more bad things will begin to pop into my head. Why is this semester so difficult?! God! We were doing so well, what happened? I really hope we can get past this...because I don't know how much more of this nonsense I can take. I don't want to break up, but the idea is now crossing my mind and it's not going away. I don't want to lose my best friend again, but maybe it would be best if I just let him get on with his life and stop holding him back from the things he wants to do.
-CabbageQ.-
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