On My Period

Well I'm not having a very good week. I'm all over the place and I need to get my head together. First of all, I have too many hours and I don't have a job that I can work them off on. I took off hours from one of my jobs to work more for another job and now that new job doesn't need that many hours after all. I can only work 20 hrs a week and I'm currently only working 8-11 hrs! Next, I need to start my homework and get ahead with what needs to be done so when I go home I don't have to come back to homework. I have a paper due and I haven't even read the book yet! Another thing, I got a C+ on my first Spanish essay, it's not bad, but I need to get some help or I'm never going to be able to pass the rest of my Spanish classes...All my classes next semester are Spanish! Next, I'm acting weird with Joey, I sent him a letter that I kinda regret sending, but what's done is done so I can't take it back. I don't know how to act when he calls. Today, he didn't call me all day until he got a break from work and then only for a little while. I don't know anymore...I know he loves me, but I feel like I'm the only one that's trying to make it work. For example, I really want him to live with me, but he keeps saying next year or when I save up enough money. When is he going to start saving up? All he does is save up his money for the new video game and something he wants at the moment. I just have to give up and tell myself that it's not going to happen. I mean I've stopped acting like a girl (if you know what I mean) for a while now and I've lowered my expectations, but you gotta have at least one expectation, right? I know he's trying really hard, but I just don't know. I think all I want...if he sees this...is to have him prove me wrong and take time to make a list of how great of a boyfriend he is to me, because I know he is, but since he doesn't show me enough, I tend to forget and only focus on the bad. I want him to plan in the future a little and surprise me with anything...flowers or chocolates or gum. He did try to surprise me once, but I wasn't at home and when I went to his house he just shoved the flowers and chocolates in my face and said "Here." Like God Joey! It wasn't my fault I wasn't home, he could have at least gave them to me nicely when I opened the door to his room or something (some Plan B that was). nope..he shoved them at me and kept on playing his video games. Well I guess boys will be boys and girls will be girls.
Oh and I'm not on my period quite yet! hehe

-CabbageQ.-